I'm just your average filthy space anti-hero. I blog about gaming, life, love, hate, sex, and failed attempts of conquering the galaxy. Mostly about life and ramblings though
When it comes to conservatives, I expect to be disliked, labeled stupid things. to be mocked, et cetera. I expect an idealogy that wants the world to be filled with people clad in Polo t-shirts, sucking the milk out of the tit of the corporate elite, a "Wal-Mart" type society, with no 'freaks with blue hair" et cetera.
But nothing hurts more, or feels disappointing, then seeing people who claim to be liberal, acting like asshole authoritarians: Policing what people are allowed to like, wear, tell people what sole culture/skin pallete an article of clothing or aesthetic belongs to. Shunning those who disagree with their world view. Hating people who have the same skin colour as the majority of the elite and make derogatory remarks about a person of your ethnicity, that you did not choose to have. Dividing, spewing venom. Becoming "the monster they are trying to fight."
It hurts, feels isolating, and chaotic and confusing, because you expect so much more.
I miss the generation of free expression and when people had a semblance of knowing how to mind their own business instead of this narcissistic holier than thou attitude. When you find yourself stuck in the middle of two extremes, it's lonely and the future looks so much hopeless.
Nothing to do with the political party, politics in general, but more so because of the literal definition of the world. "liber" meaning liberty/freedom from & "tarian" meaning authoritarian.
The freedom to express one's self freely without any outside authoritarian influence.
No one owns an aesthetic, a culture, a genre of music, an art style. As a human species, with mirror neurons firing a ton, we learn to borrow from one another. Our languages/vernaculars evolve with time. Against anyone's will evolution happens. It is no different with art.
Music purists try to drown in nostalgia; not leaving any room for growth, trying something new. This is why many 'subcultures' die out. Old wine in new bottles gets really bland over time.
Cultural aesthetic is something that is always being mimicked from previous generations. Our clothing of today predates the early civilizations that created textiles out of animal skins for the sole purpose of keeping warm during harsh winters. To claim one group "owns" an aesthetic, is pure authoritarianism and liberates no one.
Anyone that tries to shame anyone for their music choice, their artistic expression, isn't worth someone's time. It's an outdated way of thinking. More forward.
A popular blogger/vlogger I watch today got dogpiled this week.
This guy is pretty much the political equivalent of me. He voted for Jill Stein in the last election because she was the candidate that best fit his views, as did I. Anyways.. none of that matter.
He's always been critical of a certain video game media critic (name withheld), who is basically the Tipper Gore of this generation, but instead of Punk Rock, it's video games that she is creating a hysteria about. She is trying to tie video game violence/misogyny to real life violence/misogyny. Something that there is no scientific correlation between the two, and actually there is the opposite. Because video games allow player choice.
While I have agreed with SOME of her content, mainly the reward factor for some of the gnarly stuff you can do in GTA games is off-putting, but it still isn't real. That's just my opinion. But she also sex-shames video games that are sexual in nature, like a Puritan. I don't stand for it.
There was a movement in the early 00's that was a rebellion against journalist like her (movement withheld), and this vlogger was part of it (kinda). While people were hurling sexist remarks towards her, sending her death threats, his approach was more of a, "I don't agree with her, and we should speak out against what she says, but please don't be a bigot." A perfectly reasonable position imo.
Flash forward to current day. He made a kind of joking remark about the president trying to tie the recent shooting to video game violence, and made a kind of statement like, "this is the one thing I thought he wouldn't do," and of course, the reactionary, always-offended, sect of the internet misconstrued that as he is a conservative, supported the president up-until-the-point 'he came fur muh vidya games." When people have tried to reach out to this individual, he did what all these internet justice warriors do, in call him ad hominems, try and demonize him as some woman-hating asshole, et cetera.
This is why, when I find myself in company with someone that is deep in social activism, I quickly separate myself from them. I can't trust them. With this day and age, with technology at everyone's fingertips, dogpiling, listen-and-believe tactics can ruin your life. These people are worse than actual bigots. I say that because they're monsters in disguise. You want to trust them, you put so much good faith in them having the best of intentions, you think they want to live in a great humanist, altruistic world, but in the end, you say one thing they don't like, and they won't hesitate to attack. It's like Nietzsche said: "'Beware that, when fighting monsters, you yourself do not become a monster... "
This place has everything. Everything, if you're into Top 40 music, Rap/Hip-Hop, want to try and claw your way to the top to be an actress/actor, and you don't mind living paycheck to paycheck in some shitty apartment to live in "the city of dreams."
I can't take much more of this place. My brain wants to emotionally shut down from all the negative, sketchy vibes of this place, all the facade of the humans here with their hidden agendas, the smugness/cattyness, and sheer ignorance, it's making me want to vomit.
I visited my parents in a state that's pretty damn conservative, and you know what happened? I got complimented for my anime shirt (Princess Mononoke). In over the 10 years I've lived in this shithole, I've never gotten a compliment for anything I've worn, or had a nice discussion about geeky things, or obscure music, no, just nasty looks, and eyerolls from people because I'm not trying to be trendy, and I don't "dress for the season," as if this place has any room to talk about seasons...
You can't be creative here outdoors, and that's the main thing that's going to make me lose my shit. Sure, you can TRY to take some cool photos or cosplay outside, but you're going to get harassed for it.
This city is supposed to be the liberal mecca where everyone breaks bread together and sings kumbaya. But in reality, it's a trendy borg collective of bitchy, flakey, backstabbing, grade A assholes, who would gladly see you go down in the dumps if it meant they get an up-and-up on the social ladder.
It's soooo hard to make friends here too. Everyone is 'too busy,' or they're too good to meet up outside of some stupid club (where they'll be intoxicated the whole time anyway).
I'm tired of the dumb pot culture also that is making people even lazier.
Moving is such a slow process and at times, I feel like I might implode before that happens. If it weren't for video games, manga/comics, and maybe my partner + fur babies, I'd be a lunatic by now. Or maybe I'd be on drugs like everyone else, just to cope with living here..... -_-
Like all stupid + derogatory things people spew over social media, there is delicious irony. Apparently using the word "soy boy" is an insult to guys who are passive, not macho acting, or are vegan.
The context is that apparently consuming massive amounts of soy products mimic estrogenic hormones in the body, which may feminize the genotypic male. While there is medical evidence that shows that MASSIVE consumption of soy products can have a detrimental effect on health, here are two things that are laughable about that notion:
1) Soy is in every-fucking-thing. Soy crops are a massively subsidized part of agriculture, next to corn and wheat. From bread, to meat, to packaged dinners, chances are, those foods are going to be processed with soy.
2) These people usually consume meat + dairy products from cows raised on factory farms. To cut costs, farmers will inject growth hormones into dairy cows to make them grow larger and turn in higher profit. These hormones of course are Estradiol aka Estrogen.
Leave it to that site to make me feel like a vanilla bean. Also, people don't understand the fact that I am not attracted to most guys, and even if I were to make an exception, having facial hair, or a fuckboi appearance is a definite HELL FUCKING NO!
I miss my edgy bob hair, but I shaved the fucker off to have a sidecut, and then a deathhawk. I have fine hair, so it looked like hell, ala when celebrities have a mental breakdown and hack their hair off *cough* certain Marilyn Manson ex gf now social media shitstirrer *cough*.
Then I had a HORRIBLE stylist at the barber shop that I used to go to decide that an androgynous pompadour cut would look oh-so-great on me, which being the anti jock-a-billy person that I am, I almost puked. Not all of us can be Erika friggin Linder.
Anyways, my hair is a mix of smexy cyberpunk "bisexual" hair, and an uneven choppy mess. I could do extensions but that's money I don't wanna spend. Biotin pills do ye magick. Dragontits.
